i have so much to do and i can’t get it done. it’s serious, people!! this is like $3000 dollars i will owe uw if i don’t handle this. dammit dammit dammit. plus the apartment stuff. plue the food money stuff. dammit dammit dammit i am horrible.
November 26, 2008
Categories: update . Tags: (dys)functionality, supposed-tas, to do . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
i have the following to do. all very important. all over due.
tuition forfeiture petition so i’m not charged $3200 by the law school
get form from testm so i can get my $93 in food benefits for this month (or some part of it)
get in apartment cert so i don’t get evicted
so that would be money, [...]
November 18, 2008
Categories: update . Tags: (dys)functionality, self-flagellation, self-hating, supposed-tas, to do . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
how they had never really appreciated how well we use humor to get out of awkward and tense situations by deflecting or distracting because they are usually not trying to do those things. but then when they WERE they like could totally see how like we can just say something crazy and funny and just [...]
November 18, 2008
Categories: stream-of-consciousness, trying to figure something out . Tags: (dys)functionality, associating, avoidance mechanisms, being a girl, being clingy/needy, being good, being good enough, body, dark things, dreams, feeling crazy, getting stuff done, needing people, nobody loves me, scareded, sex-being a bottom, taking care of people, talking about things we don't want to talk about, to do, wanting/needing love . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
in a way it’s a lot like being queer, it’s something i wouldn’t change for anything.
we made a scaryscary call to our ssi person to be like here is the therapists we seen and we started nervous talk fastfast then switched someone so together deeper voice and was like so together they called back again [...]
November 5, 2008
Categories: update . Tags: being multiple, to do . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
summary: we want to die. someone inside is crying hysterically. we have a lot to handle: foosd stamps. ssi stuff, apartment recert, reshedule kathy.
i want to diee i want to die i want to die
and now my fucking right ear is popping again what the fuck is that???
November 4, 2008
Categories: stream-of-consciousness . Tags: crying underneath, scareded, stressed, to do . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
it is 6pm and i haven’t done anything. i have to get this paperwork done. i am going to die. i am going to die.
October 29, 2008
Categories: stream-of-consciousness . Tags: (dys)functionality, be, to do . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
how much i am supposed to be smoking: an eighth a week.
how much i appear to be smoking: an eighth and a third a week.
how much more that costs me a month:~$50 (or so) bucks
what is ridiculous: the amount of money i spend on this a month
i just cannot believe myself. watching tv. smoking. not [...]
October 28, 2008
Categories: blog, neck pain, stream-of-consciousness . Tags: paperwork, self-flagellation, smoking, stressed, to do . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
