i’m writing so woohoo so great so well done
i… i don’t have anything i want to talk about. i have things. but i do not want to talk about them. i want to talk about things that don’t make me uncomfortable, perhaps that make me look cool in some way.
so so so so so so.
so [...]
so here i am
purchased on ebay in the last 24-48 hours
1/2 lb (2000-3000 stones) of blue lace agate: $10 ($5 + $5 for shipping)
1/2 lb (~120 stones) of small advanturine: ~$5 ($1.84 for the stones plus a combined shipping discount with the blue lace agate, supra.)
5 lithium ion batteries for imac remote and digital drug scale: $2.99 (free shipping)
SNES analog audio/video cable (so i can [...]
we cried for the first third of our session with kathy
and it isn’t any of anyone’s *fucking* business what we talked about so back the fuck off. i know it is the secret itself that creates the situation. but still. some things cannot be admitted outside of therapy to someone who you are paying not to be judgmental and is required by [...]
i don’t even know what i’m scared of
but i am petrified. of everything. of everyone. i just, i cnat. people want to much they always do they always do and you can’t say no and there are no boundaries at all. i am so scared of everyone. coming near. needing me. needing too much of me and you can’t say no you [...]
Protected: we saw m*riad tonight
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i have no idea whether this is apprpriate or not
but m*riads told me once that the only (best?) defense they had was to tell and tell and tell. and so in that vein… i guess if it’s inappropriate i’ll find our and decide what to do from there.
so here is what i think. i think that a lot of parts of a*ron that used [...]
it’s so easy
you make them happy. then they make you happy. and you both need each other, so you both need to do it. so it makes sense. so it works. like with mommy. that is just how it works.
so scareded right now want go sleep want die want stop can’t do this so fake so fake [...]
this is not an entry i want to write
okay. let’s start there. this is not an entry i want to write. i am writing it, but i don’t want to be. someone started basically dictating it in our head and i was like fine i’ll write it out cuz maybe then we’ll get somewhere and they’ll shut up.
okay. so [...]
what we’re singing
life preserves or how to watch
