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i am clearly trying not to deal with stuff since i have been obsessively downloading tv shows and have made my way thru the office (both us and uk), scrubs, most of family guy, and am working my way thru seinfeld now (3 seasons in out of 9). i have cleaned a little. [...]

someone almost cried as we played the end of this for kathy yesterday

it’s our secret favorite i think. but i am pretty sure it is in no waay one of our best.  anyway we got wierd playing it today again.  we’re playing through all our songs.  we are crazy missed meds all left at m*riads went there they not there at a*rons got a little triggered but [...]

dammit

another dream. think i woke up banging my head against the pillow over and over.  something about a hotel.  all these girls (my age) there were mad at me.  the rooms were supposed to be all of ours but i was locking all the doors and keeping them all out.  always doors i can’t get [...]

but what if the people had guns?

and could shoot her? mow her down with bullets driving by or through the window or roof or floor of their apartment building.  what if she couldn’t get away?  then wouldn’t you be rooting for her not to find out the information?  to save her lide?  wouldn’t that be the actual goal?
help help help i’m [...]

e*a died or passed out or something in the dream

and we tried to give her cpr.  i don’t remember it that well.  it was in that house on the hill that i think of as victorian.

nother nightmare

god, no wonder i never want to go to sleep.  i have one every night. and they seem often quite similar.
one part a house.  lots of shrubbery and a hill keep it away from the street (like barbs?).  so far.  try to get e*a out before the people get out.  keep losing our stuff.  keep [...]