this is not an entry i want to write

okay. let’s start there. this is not an entry i want to write. i am writing it, but i don’t want to be. someone started basically dictating it in our head and i was like fine i’ll write it out cuz maybe then we’ll get somewhere and they’ll shut up.
okay.  so [...]

who am i kidding?

if m*riad is running away, then i picked them because they would be running away.  and would probably freak out if they weren’t.  i mean, let’s be honest, that would be pretty part for the course (who the fuck wrote part instead of par?).  anyway, we aid our cable bill today so we won’t have [...]

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we are so sad

heavy in our heart.  unloved.  ssandbagged and filled with sand. hurt and alone. smoking smoking smoking. scared and sad.  it is funny how we always come back here.  and at this time of year i guess.  because i felt that way with e*in basically all the time after we started actually “dating” vs like just [...]

a good day

so we heard someone singing this line in our head so we tried to make it happen on the guitar. we’ve been talking with m*riad about how we write music and i think often we here a few lines sung in our head and then play and improvise a while. usually more than [...]

we just heard our littles and it *freaked* us out

like inside got really scared.  they’re so … real.  like sad little kids.  holy god.  i’m supposed to take care of them?  someone else inside is supposed to?  who the fuck can handle that? (brief headache on right side of head)
they’re so… needy.  like not even in necessarily that bad of a way but just [...]

sometimes i just love being multiple

in a way it’s a lot like being queer, it’s something i wouldn’t change for anything.
we made a scaryscary call to our ssi person to be like here is the therapists we seen and we started nervous talk fastfast then switched someone so together deeper voice and was like so together they called back again [...]