okay. let’s start there. this is not an entry i want to write. i am writing it, but i don’t want to be. someone started basically dictating it in our head and i was like fine i’ll write it out cuz maybe then we’ll get somewhere and they’ll shut up.
okay. so [...]
December 26, 2008
Categories: stream-of-consciousness . Tags: (dys)functionality, alters, associating, being clingy/needy, being good, being hard on ourselves, being in control, being manic, being multiple, body, circling birds, dark things, feeling crazy, inter-system communication, mom, needing people, nobody loves me, pleasers, protective/possessive, scareded, self-hating, sex-being a bottom, taking care of people, talking about things we don't want to talk about, the borderlines, wanting/needing love . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
heavy in our heart. unloved. ssandbagged and filled with sand. hurt and alone. smoking smoking smoking. scared and sad. it is funny how we always come back here. and at this time of year i guess. because i felt that way with e*in basically all the time after we started actually “dating” vs like just [...]
December 4, 2008
Categories: stream-of-consciousness, update . Tags: (anti-)suicide, alone, asking for help, being good to be around, being hard on ourselves, being in control, being manic, being mean, being multiple, body, coping mechanisms, crisis, feeling sexually threatened, help, hurt, nobody loves me, not being nice enough, sad, scareded, smoking, wanting/needing love . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
so we heard someone singing this line in our head so we tried to make it happen on the guitar. we’ve been talking with m*riad about how we write music and i think often we here a few lines sung in our head and then play and improvise a while. usually more than [...]
November 30, 2008
Categories: audio, keeping a record, music, trying to figure something out . Tags: (dys)functionality, art projects, being manic, being multiple, censors, creative stuff, emotions underneath, inter-system communication, memory (loss), music, programming(?), self-hating, songs we wrote . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
we made this, which involved downloading and installing 2 pieces of software, using one to turn each picture into a pencil sketch, then the other to extract my figure from the background, then putting them all together. yeah, we’ve been pretty manic.
oh, and then of course reworking and editing to make it “better” as [...]
November 30, 2008
Categories: pcture/graphic, update . Tags: (includes picture), Add new tag, art projects, being manic, images, using software . Author: the edges . Comments: Leave a Comment
that’s what sucks about rss feeds, the posts are decontextualized from the web page. in ours we can click it special and see it but i wish it was like that automatically cuz we don’t know how exactly and we feel stupid
November 30, 2008
Categories: update . Tags: being manic, good things. web page design . Author: the edges . Comments: 2 Comments
