dream last night

woke up pretty upset, sleepy couldn’t fall back asleep.  bad edges.  anyway, dream about people, i think stef did something mean to us and i tried to explain it and she and no one else believed me and i was very angry and waiting for them to realize they’d been wrong so they’d apologize and [...]

what i have done to avoid the paperwork due basically tomorrow

laundry
shopped and returned groceries at trader joe’s
rearranged the apartment
cleaned the apartment some

and this is beside smoking and watching the office of course.  did i mention how crucial and important this paperwork is for me to have (even close to) enough money?

wow, how worthless am i?

it is 6pm and i haven’t done anything.  i have to get this paperwork done.  i am going to die.  i am going to die.

point/counterpoint

what we are supposed to be doing: our paperwork
what we are actually doing: looking at the bed, bath, and beyond website cuz we got a $10 off $30 coupon in the mail
what a fucking jerk.

wes maded another person

she is softgirl .  she was posed by like a fairy all sexy but then she wanted jamas cuz she saw a teddy bear and held it.  she sad a little not be sexy but happy to feel warm and comfy.  it is tough tho cuz she thinks only worth is be sexy she thinks.

stupid dream

okay, so we had a dream that appears to have really stressed us based on how we felt when we woke up.  our body hurts and feels heavy.
ugh.  how much do we not want to talk about this?  alot.  alot would be the answer.
(phew)
blah, it’d be better if we acted like we didn’t care, like [...]

this is lisa

panda girl

how much i am supposed to be smoking: an eighth a week.
how much i appear to be smoking: an eighth and a third a week.
how much more that costs me a month:~$50 (or so) bucks
what is ridiculous: the amount of money i spend on this a month
i just cannot believe myself.  watching tv. smoking.  not [...]

an email from my mom

I want you to call Grandmommy.  She thinks that you should talk to her because grandmothers are nicer and more forgiving than mothers.  I have told her that you are not in law school and may not return, that you are having major mental problems (PTSD, at least) but have started seeing a new counselor, [...]

god, we are so clingy with m*r**d it is ridiculous

when they were over here we’re all like boohoo you don’t love us and making them cuddle us when they have work to do and i just know they want to look at their watch.  well maybe not i mean they are just stressed and have stuff to do and sometimes we need to go [...]